My dreaded doctor's appointment.

I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. I really dreaded going. See back almost a year ago, I had been diagnosed as having Graves Disease. Now this has caused me alot of problems over the past several years. I have 2 tumors on my thyroid that I was told yesterday that could not be removed. I went to Dr. Alhaj, an Edocrimoligist, this was the 3rd doctor that I had been to for this. They all say pretty much the same thing. He said they couldn't remove these tumors because of where they were located. He said there were several nerves and things around them and if removed then I would have some paralysis in my face and neck and it would also mess up my speach. The only way that they will remove them is if it ever turns into cancer. I guess right now everything is okay as far as the cancer part goes.

So the only treatment for this is, of course medication along with radiation treatments. Now they said that the radiation treatments would NOT make me sick and it is in pill form. But the medication will react with the radiation and that is what will make me so sick. As of right now I don't know how many treatments I will have to have. The doctor said that the radiation is used to shrink or kill the tumors.

Now the worst part of it for me is that during the treaments he said that I would be TOXIC. He said that if I hold Hunter in my lap then I need to put a quilt or something between us because of the radiation and my pores of my skin. And NO SEX! :( He said he would tell me more when I go back.

I start my treatments 3 days after Christmas. Doctor said because of so much interaction with family through the holidays we would wait until after. My mom called yesterday after I got home and she got so upset. I tried to tell her that I was fine but she just wouldn't listen. She just kept crying. She said she wished that I didn't have to start treatments until she was home so that she could take care of me. I kept trying to tell her that I was okay. I think alot of it is because that she is gone and can't be with me. All three of us kids have always been so close to mom. When I was telling her bye on the phone she couldn't even tell me bye because she was crying so hard. I called Chantal and told her to call mom a little while afterwards to check on her, because she was so upset.

I don't think it is as bad as my mom and Richard thinks but hopefully it will all turn out fine in the end.
Kristie